Too much homework

It is so easy to fall into the trap of living in my own insular little world, forgetting that there is more there if I would just reach out and offer my hand.  But I'm afraid that I'm never going to remember this on a daily basis, and I'm afraid that I'm never going to measure up, not to other people and their achievements, but to myself.  And I'm afraid that I'm never going to be okay with depending on other people and asking them for things that I need.  I'm afraid that I'm never going to find a job or a career that will make me feel fulfilled, that I'm never going to love what I will spend my life doing.  I'm afraid that the people that I love don't love me back the way I love them, and I'm afraid that so much of the time I am unable to articulate how I feel about others.  I'm afraid that I fall into bad habits too easily, and fall out of good ones too easily as well.  And I'm really tired of being afraid.