It's my b-day!!!

List of things to accomplish in the next year. AKA, my Ultimate Accomplishments of Awesome List.

1. Study things that are interesting to me
2. Memorize a book of the bible
3. Journal like crazy
4. Color a lot more in my coloring books
5. Look at the Stars until 2 in the morning
6. Stay up all night talking
7. Go to Chicago
8. Dance all night
9. Sign Language? Maybe
10. Acquire and learn how to apply make-up
11. Dress Up for no reason
12. Have a tea party
13. Buy more tea
14. Buy a New Teapot!
15. Pen Pals! I need to work on this...
16. Photo shoot
17. Walk through Kalamazoo with Emily, singing along the way
18. Have more Kalamazoo adventures
19. Finish my dress
20. Become comfortable with my singing voice
21. Reread Fahrenheit 451
22. Own Last Words of Notable People
23. Own/Read all of John Green's books
24. Watch every Vlogbrother's video
25. Read a lot of poetry
26. Read The Hunger Games
27. Read Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte
28. Read Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
29. Read two Shakespeare plays I haven't read before
30. Read the Phantom Tollboth
31. Wear my Octopi shirt
32. Have fun awesome walking adventures with some of my favorite people
33. Camp out in my backyard with some of my favorite people
34. Blog about interesting stuff, not just keep a type of online journal
35. Write a short story
36. Do the Romans 8 thing Emily, Kiersten and I talked about
37. See at least one musical
38. Go to shows and artsy things
39. Go to at least one museum
40. Think about my life, a lot
41. Read my bible every day. Maybe read the new testament in three months or something like that.
42. Make my people/ideas/quotes/inside jokes book
43. Index my journals by people (Maybe only the most important people? Or maybe only the more current important people in my life... I started doing this, and it will take a long time, even with not doing indexing everybody that I've written about in my journals)
44. Hang out with people more
45. Decrease World Suck
46. Learn how to do the nerdfighter salute

My mental state is... yeah, not good

Dear Loser, Hormones,

I don't appreciate what you're doing to my body right now. Mood swings are no fun, especially when every single one of them is toward a more negative place. Did you really have to flow through my body right now? During Finals week? Am I not already stressed out enough? Did you decide that finals and studying on my birthday was just not enough agony and horribleness? Cause I really don't appreciate what you're doing to my mental state right now. And while I'm perfectly aware of what you're doing right now, I can't make myself feel better. Sometimes, emotions suck. Sometimes you hormones are so inconvenient. Let me rephrase that. You hormones are always so inconvenient and bad. I hate you.

Hate, Hannah

On a related note, I always like to think that this song is about PMSing:

Heimdalsgate like a Promethean Curse

I'm in a crisis

I need help

Come on mood shift, shift back to good again

Come on mood shift, shift back to good again

Come on, be a friend

Nina Twin is trying to help, and I

Really hope that she succeeds

Though I picked the thorny path myself

I'm afraid, afraid of where it leads

Chemicals, don't strangle my pen

Chemicals, don't make me sick again

I'm always so dubious of your intent

Like I can't afford to replace what you've spent

Come on, chemicals

Nina Twin is trying to help, and I

Really hope she gets me straight

Because my own inner cosmology

Has become too dense to navigate

I'm in a crisis

I need help

Come on mood shift, shift back to good again

Come on mood shift, shift back to good again

Come on, be a friend

Chemicals, don't flatten my mind

Chemicals, don't mess me up this time

Know you bait me way more than you should

And it's just like you to hurt me when I'm feeling good

Come on chemical

It's time to return home, to return home, to return home

I'm just in a self-pitying type of mood. Listening to the Terrordactyls, feeling like crying. I want to be done with school. With Exams. Everyone else is done. Well, practically everyone else. It just seems like so much. So much pressure. So much work. And my birthday is in two days. What am I going to do to celebrate? Study for Exams. How stupid is that? And I'm going to miss my Duke Family Christmas. Stupid Exams. It's December 17. And it doesn't feel like it at all. I can't do this. I don't even know what would make this better. On a side note, the Terrordactyls are perfect for my current mood.

My bed at the end of the day...

looks like this...

Notes on New Jersey

I'm currently watching Garden State, instead of studying... Which is probably a very bad idea. I mean, I don't have an exam until next Tuesday. But still. I really didn't feel like studying, so I'm watching Zach Braff and Natalie Portman. Note: Rated R for drug use, language, and a scene of sexuality. Other than that, it's a really good movie. You should see it, when your parents won't get upset at you for watching it. Also, Maggie's (and mine, as well) friend Emmy who I'm going to live with next year with Maggie, is from New Jersey. And I saw her today, for the first time in three or four days. Which is kind of unusual, as she's always over here hanging out with Maggie. But finals week is messing up all our usual social habits. Finals week is annoying. I just want my exams to be over already. Oh well.

Notes from a fire drill

So in recent news, my dorm had two fire alarms in less than 24 hours, my roommate and I actually talked to and hung out with some kids from our hall, and I'm almost done with my classes and just need to study for my exams. Also, I haven't really blogged in a few days. And while this may seem like a bad thing, and I do feel sorry about it after saying I would continue blogging, it's actually a symptom of a good development. I've started journaling again! I think that it's actually because of NaBloPoMo. I got into the habit of writing everyday, and then when I had stuff to talk about that I didn't want to put on the internets, I naturally turned to my journal. And now I haven't blogged regularly since I started journaling again. Whoops! I'll have to find a happy medium between blogging and journaling...

Sitting in Linguistics Class, bored

Today, I keep zoning out in every one of my classes. It's bad. I can see why insomnia is bad. Fun at the time, not fun the next day. But I'm being productive. Just not paying attention in class. Yet I'm still the one talking the most. So my teacher has told me not to answer this question. Awkward silence ensues and I still answer the question. Oh Linguistics class and my four quiet classmates who just don't care or pay very close attention. Or maybe they just don't know as many random facts as I do. Or weren't very interested in history as children. Whatever reason, I can still check facebook, blog, and fill out class evaluations and still pay attention.

Greenberg on Languages of the Americas

1) Eskimo-Aleut

2) Na-Dene (Athabaskan and Navajo)

3) Amerind (everything else)

An Apology and an Explanation

So I haven't written in several days, voiding my statement last weekend about continuing to write every day. I'm very sorry about it. I wouldn't think about blogging until it was late, or I would think about it early in the day and not have anything to say, so I would put it off not end up writing. And while I had the same problems during NaBloPoMo, I had a couple other impediments to blogging the past couple of days. Their names are Emmy, Ian, and Ian. Emmy and the Ians are some of Maggie's friends who come over here and hang out. Maggie met Emmy at orientation, and the Ians went to Maggie's high school. They're all fun to hang out with, and I enjoy it when they are here. This past week they've been over here a lot, though, which has resulted in me not blogging. Like Friday, Maggie and I and the Ians hung out for seven hours. Yesterday, between Emmy and the Ians, it was about nine and a half hours (up until I went to sleep at three this morning). Basically, it was a lot of being social, and putting off homework. Which is fine with me, but doesn't help the blogging situation. So that's basically what my past couple of days have been. And now I need to go do more math homework, which I've been putting off for a couple hours.

So much win!

Apparently everything I own and do is cute and adorable. I'm okay with this. Also, we now have a new wall decoration: post-it notes that Maggie wrote me over the past few months, with more post it notes saying "SO MUCH WIN!" and a few more such as "Quotes from..." And a family tree of Maggie and the little group of friends that hang out here. So much win!

AAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE CHARLIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry, I just had to spaz about the fact that I just bought his music, and it's now IN MY ITUNES!!!! And, yes, I did preorder it as well, but really, the money all goes back to him anyway, so I'm perfectly okay with it. Also, I used an itunes giftcard to purchase it.

*Fangirl spazzing and hyperventilating*