I can't believe it's August

Oftentimes when I'm not feeling happy, I'll stop and ask myself "What do I want, right now?"  And often times I'm able to answer that question with something like "sleep" or "food" or "tea" or "chocolate."  Tonight I find that I have no clue what I want right now.  All I know is that I want something.  Or rather, I know exactly what I want, but I have no clue how to get it, or if it is even possible to gain via concentrated effort.