Sunday, July 31, 2011

A Woman of Strength and Softness


Surrendered heart

Not surrendered identity

A strength to be reckoned with…

She does not demand respect

But you want to give it to her.

Her presence invites you to rest

In fact, she is like a tree

Holding forth nurturing branches…

Not a spider web

Trapping you for her soul food.

Her vulnerability is so lovely

You cannot keep your soul out of hers.

She is marked by a genuine kindness…

Of one who has already forgiven you

For how you will fail her.

She exudes the kind of strength

That trusts, and waits, and suffers…

As unto God’s purposes…

Not her own.

She lays her life down

Like a lamb

Not a dog…

Her surrender flows from her love…

Not fear or desperation.

Her surrender is a chosen thing.

She lives in the vulnerability of her longing to be treasured

Her longing to be known

Her longing to be invited in…

But she lets her disillusionment tenderize, not toughen, her heart.

She does not hold the objects of her love captive

She does not make them pay

Or tie them to her with guilt

Or keep them in terror of her critical eye…

But rather lets them fly free

Enjoying all the more the reunion.

They get to choose to be with her.

She lives at the mercy of no one…

She is captive only to the Father

Thus she is free to love…

Even if it means she loses.

She chooses doing love over getting love.


By Lottie K. Hillard

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

I'll say

I guess this is goodbye

it snuck up on us so fast.

I'll see you sometime later,

maybe, perhaps.

But even if this is for life,

this parting of ways

and saying goodbyes,

I hope you know

I will grieve you

the day I hear of your demise.

I will cry, or at the least feel sad,

burdened for several days.

This was too soon,

I'll say. It wasn't meant to be this way

I'll say. I haven't seen you in years,

I'll say, but I still will miss you

more now that I know you are no longer here

on this earth with me.

You are gone, and I will remain

and even if we meet again some day

in some place far different from this place,

I will still mourn your passing now.

For you touched my life

in tiny, miniscule ways

I never was aware of

until you were gone.







RIP Dr. Bowman

Saturday, July 2, 2011

My thoughts, tonight

Sometimes, God answering prayers and giving you what you asked for leads to heavy hearts and deep emotion. And all you can do is cry out to him to help you deal with it, or make sense of it, or love you through it. Yeah, those are my thoughts for tonight. I think it's bedtime.