Seeking closure more than a year later.  I don't know how well this will go.  Or if I will ever actually send the letters that I keep writing and rewriting, if I will ever say the words that are inside of me.  How far should I go?  How honest should I be?  Do you say the things that you know will not be well received even though they are important and hard and should be said by someone sometime?  Do you? And how do you do it?  How do you communicate in a way that will be understood correctly when there is such a history of misunderstanding and miscommunication?  How?  But write I must, and send I should.  (I think.)  It's time.  (I think.  I hope.)