It's been another day in which I didn't get what I wanted to/needed to get done done. Another day of failed opportunities. I'm tired of this pattern, but I'm starting to wonder if the problem is not my pattern of being unable to get things done and being lazy, but rather my attempts to be someone I'm not or do things that I can't. Maybe the problem is the fact that I'm trying to do this on my own, too much of the time. Maybe the problem is that I am not a machine and thus cannot function as one, no matter how hard I try to force myself to. I try to be efficient, and that's good, up to a point, but it's not everything. And human beings aren't naturally efficient anyway.
I don't know. I didn't spend enough time with God this morning, and it showed all day.
And Alyssa's three friends are here this weekend, which is fun and all, but is a little hard on me, cause I'm not really getting true alone time.
And I have homework things that I really need to get done this weekend. And I haven't really done any work on them.
Things are hard sometimes. But I know that everything is going to be okay in the end.
Yes, this has been me also. I tried to get everything done before the weekend, but the week just slipped by so quickly. I'm expecting to do another allnighter again. I've done that for the past two Sundays. I'm heartily developing bad habits, and I don't approve. :( I'm hoping that after high school, maybe something will click in me to make me better at this life thing, somehow. That's a big reason why I want to go to School of Ministry, get myself sorted out to some extent.
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