So Much To Say

Goodbyes are hard because whenever I leave one of my friends, or one of my friends leave me, I always think of all the times we didn't hang out, the fun things we could have done, how we could have been better friends. And goodbyes often mean that you grow apart. Because proximity helps a lot in a friendship. Goodbyes are also hard because often times I have so much to say to the person, so much emotion to communicate. But all that comes out is "goodbye, I'll miss you, I love you." All the while I wish I could say how much they really mean to me, how they've helped me so much and how much I really, truly care about them. And the goodbyes that never occur are worse. Because then I don't get to even say the little that I usually do.