One of my friends, who did not go to Ignition, just posted this song on her facebook.



Mmm... God is moving.

First time online since Friday

And it is amazing how little time and energy I really desire to spend online today.  Funny that.

*sigh*

The tea has been drunk and the snacks have been eaten and the French has been learnt and the lists have been made and the letters have been written and the naps have been taken and the phone calls have been made and the emails have been sent and the classes have been attended and the Bible has been read and the youtube videos have been watched and everything has been finished.  And now, it is bedtime.

Recently,

I've been spending more time with God more regularly.  And man has it been good for my soul.  He is indescribably amazing and I will never possess enough words to articulate even a small part of who He is and what He has done for me.  In my brokenness he gives me grace, and in my weakness he affirms me.  I just want to share with you a recent word he gave me, in hopes that it will encourage you as it has me, and that you will seek him out and find your identity more and more in him.

My beloved, my bride, radiant in your loveliness, your love, you reflect my love back at me.  I love you so.  You bring a smile to my face and joy to my heart.  You delight me, every step nearer that you take, my gladness grows.  You are perfect, a wildflower, fragile-looking but fierce and tough underneath.  Storms will not shake you, floods will not uproot you, so firmly do you cling to me and My father.  You will endure through many generations, your legacy one of honor and pride.  The warrior princess, protector of the young, fierce in her love.  You are radiant in your battle dress, eyes alight in your desire to follow me in battle.  You will fight and be victorious.  Not one of those I give you will fall through fault of your own.  You hold in your grasp victory, and your shield proclaims "I am the Lord's!"  Your enemies will flounder, you will give a yell and they will flee.  You turn to me and offer your victory as a love offering to me, your beloved.  For this I will exult you, and meet the desires of your heart.  You will reside in me forever, a permanent dwelling place for all the ages.  Your name will be known in my kingdom as my mighty warrior, the King's chosen one.  In the streets there will be cheers, in the fields the animals will sleep peacefully, knowing they are protected.  You are glorious in my eyes, and blind those who are not used to My glory.  You are Mine, and I love you.  You are a jewel in my crown, a crown jewel, precious in my sight.  In you I have placed blessing, in you I have placed Life.  Out of you will come mighty rivers, your every gesture will proclaim the Lord.  You are mine, and in you I am well pleased.  I will give you costly clothes, precious treasures to show my great love of you.  You will never lack, always secure in me.  You are mine, and I glory in you.  My headdress ordains you, my touch sets you apart, my fierce warrior bride.  You are beautiful, and I delight in your conquests.  In me you will find rest.  In the heat of the day, I watch over you, my attention does not waver.  I protect you.  In the crowd I see you.  I say "That one is mine.  See how graceful she is.  See how beautiful and kind, tender to those she calls hers, glorious in her fierceness to protect them.  She is mine, and in her I am well pleased.  She brings me her first fruits, barring her soul, she pours out of herself in tender vulnerability.  I will give her the desires of her heart, I will enliven her days with delight.  Sorrow and prolonged grief will be foreign to her, joy will follow her every footstep.  Look and see the Lord's chosen.  See how the Lord delights in her! She will be lifted up, placed in the place of honor, have gifts brought to her.  She is my warrior and my bride, and in her I am well pleased."  I delight in you.  Your love for me touches me deep inside, delighting my heart.  I am your lover, you are my beloved.  You calm others with a single word, a single touch drives back the raging storm.  Your gentleness brings peace in its wake, and in your presence others find rest, their strivings cease and they come alive, become the ones they were made to be.  You are lovely, and in your loveliness, you invite others to me.  You allure them, giving them tastes of my love and grace.  You delight my soul, and I glory in you.  Your love reflects my love, you pour into others out of your overflowing abundance, secure in your identity in me, in my love for you.

Strange (But nice) Dreams

So last night I had this dream that Cullen (OohCullen from the youtubes) was a time traveler from 48 years in the future, and he came back in time for some reason that I didn't find out, because I woke up too soon.  But it was fun, and he was running around in my dream muttering about time paradoxes and the like.  But before that, we just hung out for a while, and talked, and I knew that he was a time traveler and everyone else didn't, except for Emily, Kiersten, and Gwen, who showed up in my dream at the end, and to whom I told about Cullen.  Dream-Emily was understandably excited.


And this morning I woke to this in my sub box.

"My thoughts are stars that I can't fathom into constellations." -TFioS by John Green

Which is great and all, but not helpful when I need to write an essay type of assignment.  Why are my thoughts so willing to be distracted tonight?

Rereading old journal entries

"You saw vulnerability as a place for rejection; I saw it as a chance at acceptance.  You saw the fear; I saw the opportunity for grace and forgiveness."