Thoughts from Youtube

I'm pretty impressed with myself.  I've watched over 6,600 youtube videos since getting an account two and a half years ago...  I wonder if it counts videos that I've watched multiple times.  And I wonder how much time I've spent watching youtube videos total?  Hmm...

Good Tidings

I'M COMING HOME IN TEN DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOR A BIRTHDAY(I'm going to be 21 in ten days o_O)/COMING HOME/TEMPORARY GOODBYE/CHRISTMAS PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I'M SO EXCITED!!!! I hope that there is snow and we can go ice skating and sledding and sing Christmas songs and make hot coco and eat cake and drink tea and laugh and laugh and play board games and everything good and exciting and happy. =D

A Rite of Passage

I just looked into a mirror and realized that I am not a child anymore.  I am not a child.  I am a woman.  I am grown up, I am an adult.  There are days when I act like a child still, a slave to my own petulant whims.  But I am not a child, or a teenager, or an adolescent.  I am an adult, with my own life, and my own choices about how I will live that life.  It is mine, to do with what I will.  I think I've finally passed that point that I've wanted to have for a while now.  That moment signifying a passage from child to adult.  And I'm not sure what it was, exactly, just that it happened this evening when I looked into a mirror and acknowledged without fear that I am an adult now.  And I am sure that there will be days when I am childish, and days when I will be wise.  But something's changed.  Something has shifted.  And I'm glad for it.

One of my favorite songs ever.  And the video is pretty freaking fantastic as well.  16 more days.

The amount of "Oh my word I don't want to get up I just want to sleep forever and ever" this morning was kind of astronomical...  Which is why I got up three hours after my alarm first went off.  And I wish I was still sleeping.  Weh!  17 more days.

Apparently tonight is a "Hannah is full of nostalgia and angst" kind of night... Weh.  Why?

(Listening to Relient K and Death Cab for Cutie is probably not helping anything....)

Taking a break from studying and The King's Speech is on Netflix.  I may just be kind of emotional and stressed right now, but I was pretty much crying.  It's such a good, inspiring, beautiful movie.  And now I need to take some of that inspiration, and go write a paper with it.  19 more days.  I can do this.